The sky was clear when I woke up, but clouded over mid morning. More rain to come. Last night's sleep was less worse, thanks to eating less at supper time, though I still needed to drink plenty of water when I got up to avoid a foggy head. I had porridge and bacon for breakfast to compensate for blood sodium loss. Admittedly I peed half as much volume as I have been doing this last couple of months, an improvement, but was still awake for nearly three hours out of ten in bed. I'll have another blood test on Wednesday. I'll find out then if there's been any change at all.
I can't seem to escape worrying about this commitment we've made to install solar panels. Even though the offer looks sound, I have nagging doubts I can't quite put my finger on, and am getting distressed by them. When I went for a walk after lunch I talked with Owain about it. He understood, and reassured me that if I was having misgivings it was possible to pull out of the contract. Clare had been in touch with the company about changing our combi gas boiler to an electric boiler, which it seems can be done for little or no added cost as part of the deal. It seems there are grants for doing this.
Owain was doubtful about what this would achieve as electric water boilers are notoriously expensive to run, and would reduce the benefit from home solar generated power export to the grid. A casual remark about solar power use in our area led me to inspect roofs in our neighbourhood when I was walking around. I couldn't spot any. Maybe this is due to the alignment of houses along a northeast-southwest axis. Hardly ideal for solar panels unless they are state of the art high efficiency ones. Few houses in our area may have roof surfaces optimally oriented, and that may explain the reason there's scant evidence of roof top solar panels around us. Are we ready to be early adopters of new kit yet to live up to the energy production claims made for our neighbourhood in all good faith? By the end of the afternoon Clare too was having misgivings, so we decided to cancel the contract, and hopefully have our deposit refunded without any hassle.
Perhaps I felt so bad about Saturday's decision to proceed as it's something we both want to happen. I was unable to get a grasp on appropriately informed questions at the presentation session. I was feeling poorly and thinking too slowly and disjointedly to think critically.
Anyway, I'm less anxious and agitated about it now that my instinctive risk aversion and caution have had their impact.
Clare had supper even earlier than me as she was going to choir practice. I recorded and edited this week's Morning Prayer and Reflection while she was out, thankful I could concentrate on the task after an emotionally topsy turvy anxious day in which I hardly recognised myself.
Now the decision has been taken, I think I shall sleep better tonight after a light supper again, as that's what seems to suit me now.
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