Life changing

 The consultant examining me was teaching a class of medics about my symptoms and referred me straight away for a CT scan which revealed a blood clot on the occipital lobe of my brain. Pressure from it was threatening circulation, causing the symptoms experienced. It was a question of waiting for a regime of four additional different medications to be prescribed to lower my blood pressure plus blood thinners  to disperse the clot safely.T he day passed with me stabilizing. I was able to walk around the ward. and to the toilet very carefully I, should say ,because I was still prone to stumbling. By the evening, I was moved from a ward of ailing men and women into a four bed unit for men only. undergoing completion of their treatment and discharge, so quickly believe it or not. I ended Monday after visits from people including the Chaplain. Kath arrived with phone charger,my regular medication and pyjamas, having come down to accompany Clare while I was out of the house. Her presence was most welcome as there were a few things which I hadn't been able to gather together. it was good to know Clare had her support. I don't know how much longer I'll be kept in, but they will conclude tests and give me time with an occupational therapist to see if I can manage at  home. It seems seems accumulation of stress over the last week or so pushed my blood pressure up, making my blood clot, giving me a stroke. I did overdo it. Serves me right, you could say. Experience of being cherished and looked after by staff ar UHW left me feeling I am going to be alright eventually. With such blood pressure I could be dead by now. I'm not dead so far I will be cancelling all the things I meant to be doing and that wasn't exactly easy from hospital. Staff were marvellously helpful to ensure this week's cataract op  gets cancelled, which I failed to do  by phone. The next Sunday service I am booked to do at Fairwater Fr Rhys took over, such a relief.

I'm not going to write much more now. I'm pretty tired and I need the rest. So  grateful to all those people have held me up this last weekend. After a  case conference they I'll discharged, having satisfied themselves I can look after myself and Clare with the right support after the astonishing surprise. I didn't really think that my wife my life was in control.

This has taken ages to write using a speech to text app and editing it. Confirmation that   my hand eye coordination is very poor. My left eye has a blockage in field of vision to exacerbate the problem of control and navigation. I'm not blind, but will have to give up driving a car. Regrettable, but also a relief. We've already discussed giving up the car. Driving has become a stressful chore already. An end to 55 years of motoring for me, on an equal footing with Owain, who hasn't yet learned to drive