Getting ready to go

Another night of broken sleep punctuated by worries about sorting out medication before we go away, but waking up to sunshine and hazy blue sky. I went to the surgery after breakfast feeling somewhat worse for wear, as if I'd just been rudely awakened from deep sleep, though I'd been up for a couple of hours already. I explained to the receptionist in a less than coherent way the problem I was having with the timing of my prescription repeat, and she kindly went on the prescription website and dealt with the matter immediately. All I need to do now is return to the pharmacy opposite the surgery at the end of today to collect it, then my most immediate worry will be over.

I went to the pharmacy immediately to get throat sweets and soluble aspirin for Clare and was told they had none in stock. Thankfully I was able to buy some at 'Savers' drugstore on Cowbridge Road. Not only was my brain lethargic, but my legs were stiff, slow to warm up. While I was out Clare cooked a pasta dish for lunch. After we'd eaten I went into town on the 61 bus, to book train tickets for our Tenby trip. This involved renewing my rail card at a cost of thirty five quid, a third of the cost of the return journey for both of us.

After returning home, I was rather slow to remember that I needed to pick up my prescription from the pharmacy. Too slow in fact. I walked as fast as I could but arrived at half past five to find the lights were out and the front door locked. Previously I've had to wait for a particular ordered item to arrive. I don't know if this might be the case again. If so, it'll mean I can't leave for Tenby as planned tomorrow. I don't need any more uncertainty, worry and lost sleep. Life seems to slip out of control easily when my ability to concentrate fails and disrupts the coherence of my memory and my mind goes blank. Mental fatigue and stress leave me feeling so vulnerable, especially in public. It's just as well my core strength is still good.

Packing holiday travel bags after supper this evening. Not an easy job - clothes, tech' gear, medical stuff, a few books. Collecting stuff needed, packing and checking everything with a slow brain, not very good at dealing with complexity - it's an ordeal nowadays. I went out and walked for twenty minutes as it was getting dark, to clear my head. It promises to become warmer this week. Bed early tonight, hoping for as much good sleep as I can get.